Having OCD is a funny thing sometimes. And I mean that both as funny strange and funny ha ha. After all, if I couldn’t laugh at myself, then things could be much worse than they are. As it is, sometimes I even find it useful. I mean, I can organize the heck out of anything when I set my mind to it. <\/p>\n
Most of the time I don’t even really notice that there’s anything different. <\/p>\n
Of course, I’m not sure I’d know what it would feel like if I wasn’t different. <\/p>\n
For me, it’s mostly little things. I don’t have obsessive hand washing, however, I do know how my hands feel dirty when I touch something my mind believes to be unclean.<\/p>\n
But the things that really drive me nuts are 3-way light switches. Not all of them mind you, but the ones with multiple switches. I cannot stand<\/em> it when the switches go in different directions. It bugs the crap out of me. I will walk across a darkened room or up an unlit stairwell so that the switches will be in the same direction. (That’s a fun one. I usually run up the stairs, because I imagine things in the dark corners of the basement. Things that come out when the lights are out. [This is why I don’t watch horror movies. My imagination doesn’t need the help.])<\/p>\n Meanwhile, the whole thing kinda defeats the purpose of having 3-way switches in the first place.<\/p>\n I wonder, sometimes, what is it like to go through a day and not be worried about things like that? Not to be bothered by mismatched light switches or floor tiles that are different colors. (That’s a fun one too. Because there is something “wrong” with the mismatched tiles, I can’t step on two different colored tiles at the same time.) <\/p>\n What is the point of this mutation I have? Why did it develop? What has allowed it to survive? What is it’s evolutionary significance? It must have some adaptive use. I mean, how else has is survived? Because I know for damned sure that just as living with OCD can at times be hard, I’m sure that living with me must often be harder still. <\/p>\n Don’t get me wrong though. Most days I don’t even think about the things I do. They don’t bother me, they just are. And when I do think about it, I usually laugh it off. Because there is something hilariously stupid about acting against my own self-interest. <\/p>\n But sometimes I do wonder, “why me?” And today was one of those days.<\/p>\n Why? Because Michael just repaired the 3-way switch in the kitchen. So that’s one more for me to worry about.<\/p>\n On the bright side, think of all the extra exercise I’ll get, walking back and forth across yet another room, to put the switches in the correct direction!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Having OCD is a funny thing sometimes. And I mean that both as funny strange and funny ha ha. After all, if I couldn’t laugh at myself, then things could be much worse than they are. As it is, sometimes I even find it useful. I mean, I can organize the heck out of anything […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1498","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pefxA-oa","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1498","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1498"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1498\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1498"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1498"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/notreally\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1498"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}