I’m currently at the point where it feels like every day is a struggle.<\/p>\n
Saturday night I didn’t even want to get off the sofa to shower and go to bed–and a hot shower is usually my favorite point of the day. I’ve got a week and a half till I go back to the doc and can hopefully get my meds changed.<\/p>\n
Wish it was this week, because I am really sick and tired of being cranky and irritable and miserable and incoherent and just plain depressed.<\/p>\n
To add insult to injury, Grandmom keeps thinking I’m mad at her, because I’m not talkative. It’s almost enough to make me want to take up residence in the basement, just so I’m not reminded of how badly I’m failing to deal with this damned bout of depression.<\/p>\n
But it’s the start of another week, and I will keep plodding, knowing that at some point I get to switch from existing to truly living.<\/p>\n
That day cannot come soon enough.<\/p>\n
I’ll keep posting throughout the week, but don’t expect brilliance or anything. At the very least I’ll try to post pictures. <\/p>\n
Or if you’re really unlucky, I’ll post code.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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