{"id":21305,"date":"2022-11-20T11:50:28","date_gmt":"2022-11-20T16:50:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/reading\/?p=21305"},"modified":"2026-05-08T20:37:24","modified_gmt":"2026-05-09T00:37:24","slug":"paris-daillencourt-is-about-to-crumble","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/klishis.com\/reading\/archives\/21305","title":{"rendered":"Paris Daillencourt Is About to Crumble"},"content":{"rendered":"

Paris Daillencourt Is About to Crumble<\/em><\/a> (2022) Alexis Hall<\/a> (Winner Bakes All)<\/p>\n

\"Paris<\/a>I should not have read this book.<\/p>\n

Main character with an undiagnosed anxiety disorder (that does get diagnosed), on-page panic attack, hospital stay due to panic attack, treatment plan for anxiety disorder discussed, emotionally unavailable parents, very graphic swearing, cyberbullying, religious and racial microaggressions, Islamophobia (challenged).<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

That first line, that was the problem. <\/p>\n

I saw and recognized exactly what was happening with Paris–and was unable to do anything about it.<\/p>\n

He knew that there had been a time\u2014 even a fairly recent time\u2014 when he didn\u2019t feel miserable and hate himself, and he knew that there would be a time\u2014 perhaps even quite soon\u2014 when he\u2019d be unmiserable and self-nonhating again. But he knew it in the same detached, abstract way that he knew that his whole body was made entirely of empty space held together with electric fields. It might have been true, but it didn\u2019t really mean anything.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

That was not a good thing for my brain. <\/p>\n

If only there was an app that would detect when you\u2019d fucked up a social situation so badly you needed to bail. And then bail you.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

So many things I recognized.<\/p>\n

\u201cSorry. Sorry. It\u2019s just he\u2019ll be here soon and I\u2019m in my head and\u2014\u201d <\/p>\n

\u201cParis, are you ever anywhere else?\u201d <\/p>\n

\u201cNo. No, I\u2019m not.\u201d<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

And hated recognizing. <\/p>\n

Drinking to forget never really worked for Paris. Everyone knew alcohol was supposed to lower your inhibitions, but the particular inhibitions he\u2019d found it removed were the ones stopping his brain spiralling down the plughole of improbable catastrophe.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

(T)he part of his brain that firmly believed he shouldn\u2019t have nice things was not-so-politely asking him whether that wasn\u2019t a bit weird?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

“Because, genuinely, wearing clothes that don\u2019t fit you has the opposite effect from the one you think it has.\u201d <\/p>\n

\u201cNrugh?\u201d asked Paris. <\/p>\n

\u201cYou see someone dressed nicely in well-fitting clothes. You think ah, there\u2019s a person. You see someone trying to hide inside their jumper, you think hmm, what\u2019s that guy\u2019s deal, why\u2019s he made that unusual fashion choice.”<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

There was a lot that was wonderful in this story, but watching Paris spiral–and then get bullied for it, was just too much for me.<\/p>\n

Publisher: Forever<\/p>\n

Rating: NR<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Paris Daillencourt Is About to Crumble (2022) Alexis Hall (Winner Bakes All) I should not have read this book. 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