I don’t actually know if today is going to be rough and miserable, but chances are I’m going to have hard day.

As I mentioned in passing Saturday, I am having a difficult time gauging my depression. Work is incredibly busy, so I’m exhausted by the end of the day. But I love what I’m doing, so it’s a good kind of exhaustion. On the other hand, I have been having issues with my OCD, probably because of the stress I’m under at work.

I feel kinda bad, because most of my posts are being written Sunday night, and I’m relying heavily on following patterns and posts that follow a regular weekly schedule. Mostly because my brain is fried and I feel incapable of being creative right now–at least in writing. I have to admit that I’m still pleased with the flower pr0n I took over the weekend. I think it’s because it uses a different part of my brain.

And there are plenty of things that are making me smile. My flowers are doing very well, and I’m able to sit back and enjoy them (which is good, because the idea of doing actual gardening right now is overwhelming).

I also re-read a fantasy series that I love (Thursday’s post will be all about that) and although Anne tormented me by suggesting making oreos, which I’m too tired to do right now, I did make a very delicious pizza (Tuesday’s post)

But what do I really want right now? A vacation. I’d love to be able to get away for a week and do nothing but relax. I’ll just have to see what happens though, since July is the only time Michael can get away from work.

So, enough about me, how have you been?

Y’know, I’m getting really tired of this current bout of depression/anxiety.

I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing–exercise, getting enough sleep–but I don’t feel like I’m getting much better.

One clue is that when I can play endless games of solitaire on the computer, my head isn’t all it should be. I’m trying to do things I like, such as baking, but even that seems kinda futile right now. I’ve got projects I want to do, I just can’t get up the oomph to do them.

So here’s your task for today: Amuse me. Make me laugh. Tell me really stupid jokes–the dumber the better, and I love bad puns.

Laughing makes me feel better, so I challenge you to give me something to laugh about.

Meanwhile, I’m going to try to keep busy, to see if that helps.